she wakes up shaking twisting her head like trying to shake off something she started crying then decided to go bath and clean herself up from such a sin and pray for forgiveness,later on this day she was whispering to her dearest extremest friend: I made something wrong! what? I woke up to find that I was having a very bad dreaming that contained feelings of desire for my beloved ,oh GOD how dare you that is a sin just like prostitution you’ve to keep praying and fasting you’ve done a sin ,but but I was asleep it was out of my hands I love him and he loves me
no excuses you are a sinner
she goes back home enters her room closes the door
oh my GOD ,oh my GOD,my little girl,why did she do that why she was engaged and getting married next eek oh GOD ,WHY ,sobbing and crying
Tell me Dr was she pregnant or something she wrote in her suicidal note that she was a sinner and that nothing’d clean her up but her death blood
Your daughter was still a virgin when she had cut her arteries
she fell in love with an illusion,loved every romantic hero in a book or a movie,like a teenager she’s in love with love itself.She loved what she never had and what she has always wished for ,when she thought she got it it was just acting, deceiving and just a trial to break her up,she thought she loved with all her heart but woke up on reality shore to realize that love is not the same,she realized very late that nowadays love is just a game,a lie,she dreamed a dream of feelings then woke up in a nightmare of evil,hurt,may be that’s what really occupies the worlds’ hearts ,at least finally she woke up wondering where all those guiding books,relationships directories have been 8 years ago!!!!
she is a project of a book that contains glimpses from different females lives it’s like a one act that summarizes a life time of each female, along with short personal life quotes,acts of the writer:
woke up in a hospital ER wondering what really happened, feeling much pain ,touching her face she found it swollen ,tried to scream, but couldn’t speak tried to scream of pain but not a single word she could utter, opening her eyes in pain realized all what had happened surrounded by neighbors a flash back came to her she remembered all the beating, kids screaming, the knock on the head ,she breathed heavily wishing it would be her last breath so she could end this torture she kept asking herself why is it happening? why she the one who sacrificed and stood by him is the one who is being abandoned ?? she wanted to scream that it is over she can’t take it anymore but woke up to the crying of her children who wouldn’t find financial support and would be taken away from her to be raised by a cruel woman who took their father away from them again she went mute and tried to close her eyes in pain still wondering why??
(Life is like stations you can be bold to try stepping out in its’ stations and you could spend your life stuck in one station wondering what you are doing there.)’Yassmin El-Nazer’.